Lesson 1 - How to Disappear Completely

I can't help but wonder if I should just throw in the towel and hand a white flag above my door to surrender the fight. Each day becomes harder than the last; more complicated, less hopeful. I used to live for me but now it's like I'm just stuck living for the day it all ends. The day will come and I will welcome it with open arms no matter what that end means for my existence. 

It's hard to be broken completely with not a person around who is concerned about the implications of a shattered soul. I feel more alone than ever before and I'm losing this battle to make amends. 

People don't give anything these days, they just take. And I'm the person who has nothing left to offer up to the vultures circling atop my house of cards. When death and all his friends come knocking I won't have a thing left in which to barter for my continuance. Should I just prepare for disappearing completely?